When Fear Feels Like Homesickness: How Prayer and Church Community Helped Me Find Peace
When I first moved from the U.S. to Wales, I was burdened by the stress of leaving behind my loved ones—the people who knew me best. Big life transitions like this have a way of surfacing our greatest hopes, unaddressed pain, and even our deepest fears.
As the weeks passed, I found myself tempted to withdraw from new friendships and even avoid fellowship opportunities altogether. With God’s help, I came to realize that what I was experiencing wasn’t just homesickness—it was fear.
Fear of being forgotten.
Fear of not being known.
Fear of being misunderstood.
But more than anything, it was the fear that I was truly alone.
Facing the Fear Through Prayer
Maybe you’ve felt that way too. Maybe you’re feeling it now.
When I finally acknowledged the weight I was carrying, I turned to the Lord in prayer:
“I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.”
— Psalm 34:4
The fears didn’t vanish overnight, but the Lord was faithful. He gave me boldness to face them, and He reminded me that as Christians, we were never meant to carry our burdens alone—no matter how small they may seem.
Learning to Lean on the Church
Though I had learned this truth, I didn’t truly live it out until just this week. After a recent doctor’s appointment that led to a biopsy, I was overcome with stress—even though the doctors didn’t seem alarmed.
This time, instead of withdrawing into worry, I turned to a few women in my church for prayer. It was something new for me. Something vulnerable. Something scary.
In the past, I would’ve kept the entire situation to myself and struggled in silence. But God gently reminded me of the beauty in asking for prayer—and the strength found in community.
That simple act opened the door for peace and joy. It reminded me of what it means to be part of a church family that genuinely cares.
You Don’t Have to Go It Alone
Friend, it can feel uncomfortable to invite others into your stress or uncertainty. I was honestly embarrassed to even bring it up—especially since it could all turn out to be nothing.
But if you feel alone, if you feel like an outsider in your local church, consider that fear might be standing between you and connection. I encourage you to push past it and ask for prayer. That’s how we grow. That’s how we link arms and walk in step with the Body of Christ.
We’ve been given this beautiful gift by Jesus—the one who died and rose again to unite us. Community is part of God’s good design.
“Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.” — Galatians 6:2
“If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it.” — 1 Corinthians 12:26
Reflection Questions:
When have you been tempted to withdraw during a hard or uncertain season? What did you believe about yourself, others, or God in that moment?
What fears might be keeping you from drawing near to your church family? Ask God to meet you in those fears.
Is there someone in your life who might be suffering in silence right now?
Meet the Author
Ashleigh Kusuma
Ashleigh traded the cornfields of Illinois for the coastal mountains of Bangor, Wales, after getting married last summer. This big life change led her and her husband to join their local church where they’ve found a faithful community. Ashleigh started her Master’s degree in English and Creative Writing in the fall, exploring human emotions and faith through her writing.
When she’s not writing essays or updating her blog, @forhispeople_ , she’s pouring coffee at her local cafe, chatting with the locals. She loves to bake, crochet, and go on long walks—especially when the sun is shining and daffodils are in bloom. Although she’s still adjusting to Welsh weather, she’s learned to appreciate rainy days with a cup of tea in one hand, and a good book in the other. Through her writing and other hobbies, she hopes to bring warmth and encouragement to those around her.